I feel as though the fog is finally lifting, that I am starting to find myself in happier places. No longer am I having these feelings like I have to be doing something at all times. No longer am I feeling an urge to leave as soon as I drag people into doing that something. I haven't had a true anxiety attack for a week, and most of the chronic signs of anxiety are lessening. Last night, I stayed home, watched TV, read a little, played a video game, and then messed around with a photograph of mine while hanging a couple others up in my still mostly bare-walled apartment. And then I went to bed...before midnight for the first time in a long time, actually allowing myself a full eight hours of sleep. And today I feel good, if not great. And that's a first time for months.

No longer am I dwelling on the problems of friends and those around me, trying to "fix" all their problems in an effort to ignore my own. It's good to be back to myself, or at least to be moving in that direction. Though perhaps the reading on this blog will start to become less interesting for anyone who's hung around to this point.

In any case, I just wanted to post that, to give an update. So get back to whatever it was that you were doing...unless you were just taking a break from the internet porn, in which case I think it's best if you check out this site.