2005

I just got back from a very tame new years party...I like that. We played card games, trivial pursuit, and just sat around talking and drinking. It was swell. I hope everyone had a good evening and will have the happiest of years in the coming 365 days.

But with the new year comes the resolutions. I've done much over the last few months straightening out my life and getting some direction. For that I am happy, and I don't doubt that I will continue on track. For the first time in a long time I feel as though I am heading into the future rather than stuck in the past or present and it feels GOOD...I don't forsee anything happening that would knock me off that track.

But there are still a few things. Some little, some big, that I need to work on still, and so now is as good a time as any to start it off. So, without further ado:

1. Stand up for myself. I need to stop wilting under pressure and doing things to appease others -- sometimes putting my wants ahead of others. I took a step towards that tonight. I didn't go into work. Two weeks ago I told them I was not going to work and they told me too bad...then they called me again tonight to "make sure" I was coming in and I said no. I think I'm fired or quit or something, but I don't care. It was $35 a week for sitting at the door checking IDs on Friday night. I hated it, I didn't like it, but they needed me...but I put my own wants ahead of their's -- and though I felt a little bit guilty at first (and thought about caving and going in anyway), I feel just fine about it now.


2. Exercise more. I've even thought about working my way up to jogging or joining the YMCA.


3. Volunteer my time more. I suck at this, I look for excuses to not...but it's good for me, good for the community, and just all around good. I'm not just talking soup kitchen stuff either, but committees dedicated to improving my city


4. Get out of (non-student loan) debt. Being in school and paying for my living expenses with loans will allow me to use the money I earn to pay off family I owe to and my credit cards which are just killing my credit. I need to not go on vacation (too much) or to the casino (too much).